I miss you. I hate myself for not coming to visit at some point.
The last time I saw you was at your graduation party. I had so much fun. I met more Buttons there! It was all really exciting.
Out of all of the fucked up jokes I've heard in my life, you told one of the worst. I fear repeating it, it's probably not the right time to be talking about it or thinking about it for that matter. In retrospect it really showed how strong you were, so I might as well.
While talking to someone about some happening of the past, while they were reminiscing you stopped them mid sentence and said "I don't remember any of that.. You see, I used to have a really good memory, and then I got brain cancer." I was in shock, I didn't laugh. Horror showed on my face..
I don't remember when I met you, at all. I don't even remember if it was at Levy or not. I think it was at Nottingham but I could very well be wrong. We were never the closest, some people will probably think me writing this is weird because of that fact. Whatever. I have things I'd like to say.
I'm glad that I met you. You really brightened up a lot of my days in high school and everyone knows how hard that was.
I don't really know what else to say.
The pictures of us during the play, and at senior prom when we were Juniors. Excellent times. I still have to get the picture of us from OUR senior prom. If I see him Friday or Saturday I'll make sure to get a copy as soon as possible
I remember when I first found out about your cancer. Eben called me and woke me up, I could tell something was seriously wrong. He was so distraught. As soon as he said your name I started crying. For us not being the closest of friends it still hit me like a ton of bricks. It was really hard to see you after. Seeing you get sicker and sicker took it's toll on everyone, it destroyed me inside. I was terrified that every time I saw you would be the last. I really did try and avoid seeing you at times, tricking myself that it'd somehow keep you here longer. I was stupid. I wish I could have visited you at some point before, not to say goodbye, but just see what you were doing. I said what I needed to say to you opening night of Romeo and Juliet. You and Dan are two of the biggest inspirations in my life. You were so strong in such awful circumstances.
You mean a lot to so many people. I'm glad you no longer have to suffer.
